Soul shredder

You call for me

You say you love me

But you won’t be with me

You’re hurting me

You needed someone there

And I was there

I offered you a way out of the darkness

And you’re extinguishing my light

If I can’t be with you

I can’t be with anyone

I can’t stop loving you

No matter how much you torment me

Everyone else gets chance after chance after chance

I get no second chance

Everyone else who hurt you gets to hurt you again

But I just get hurt without getting a second chance to love you

I pray, I plea, I beg for God to lift my pain

To take the love I feel for you away

So I can find my release

But he won’t do it

Some say that we have to be our own miracles

I can’t not love you

Asking me not to love you is like asking me to stop breathing

I can’t do it.

So I have to live with my pain

Now and forever

Because you won’t give me the chance

Despite all you told me.

The things I loved before

Will never offer me pleasure again

Because we shared those things

And they will always remind me of you

My escape from this world has become my prison

And you’re my jailer

My heart is held prisoner

A life sentence with no possibility of parole

I can’t escape

And there is no death sentence offered

For I’ve done no wrong

To be punished so

I’ll sit in my solitary confinement

Waiting for God to lift me from this world

When my suffering is complete

When I can let go of this life

Your words are your Agiel

My love is my collar

No magic left in my heart

No power left in my soul