Suffering

I said I didn’t believe God was doing this to punish us

I said that I was indomitable, invincible, invulnerable

I said that I wanted to work things out with her

I said those things to hide my pain

I want to be with you

I want to give you my everything

I want to share my life with you

I want you by my side forever

I can’t walk away

I can’t stay

I can’t tell her the truth

I can’t run away

My heart is aching for your smile

My lips yearn for your sweet kiss

My mind seeks yours

My soul begs for relief

My suffering is getting stronger

My suffering is breaking me

My suffering is winning

My suffering could destroy me

How long will this continue?

How long can I hold on?

How long until I’m free?

How long until you can be with me?

Lord, show me the suffering is not in vain

Lord, show me the path out of the pain

Lord, carry me across the fields of agony

Lord, help me!

I want to scream in pain

I want to share these tears

I want to stay with you

I want my suffering to cease…